The last few days have been such a blur. I’m exhausted, my body aches, and yet I’m also feeling so much joy and excitement. We bought our first home on Friday afternoon, and have spent nearly every second since then cleaning and unpacking. After a weekend of that, I am ready for a break! Unfortunately, there’s no rest for the weary because there’s still so much more to do.
BUT I’m taking a quick break to enjoy a cup of tea and write a little life update.
Yesterday was sort of weird for me, I wanted to really focus on Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day, but I had so many things going on that I didn’t get much of a chance to reflect. I feel a little guilty for not acknowledging it with my own post on social media, but I did see so many of yours and I truly loved the way you all remembered our lost little ones while raising awareness. Thank you for that.
Now that we have officially moved to a new state and purchased our house, I have a restored feeling of hope. I have hope that this home will soon be filled with countless memories. I am looking forward to the holidays, birthdays, and anniversaries we will celebrate here. I’m excited to meet new people, and share our story with them. There is also a hope that I am a little more timid to talk about, out of fear that it may never happen. It is that one day we will be able to bring a healthy baby home, and watch him/her grow up in this house.
But as I look to the future, a piece of my heart is forever anchored to the day Aria left this world. She is such a huge part of the reason we ended up in Texas, and we wouldn’t have any of this without her. It seemed pretty fitting that a photo of her was one of the first things to be unpacked in this house. No matter what, three of us still call this place home – two of us living under the roof, and one sweet little girl watching over it.